Prayer Request

I'm the sort of person who's very hesitant to scream 'satanic attack' unless it seems very, very obvious... and frankly, that's rather rare. But at the moment, I'm tempted to start screaming.

The last three weeks have been quite good spiritually... I've been talking to God a fair amount, getting more involved with church members, going to prayer group. But they've also been incredibly difficult emotionally. I've been in tears probably half of those nights. That's NOT normal for me.

Now it could actually be that this is part of a healing process. I've commented before that I struggle with depression. It usually manifests mostly as extreme difficulty doing anything... even getting out of bed seems a huge and relatively pointless task. So it could be that God is moving my coping mechanisms from internalising problems to immediate emotional release. Theoretically, that could be a sign that this depression is being healed slowly but surely. That would be nice.

So... there's my situation. It could be satan attacking, it could be God healing. Bizarre, but I'm really not sure which it is. My discernment is cloudy on this one. What I'm asking isn't for prayer against the sadness, upsetness and teariness, but prayer for God to move, and for me to be open to His moving. I don't even need to know what's going on... all I need to know is that God is in control. To know that, I need control of my heart, mind and soul given over to Him.