Yet Another Prayer Request

I have another prayer request. I feel as though I'm taking more than I'm giving with this blog! But maybe that's life, eh? Sometimes you take, sometimes you give.

So, the prayer request has two parts, and each requires some explanation:

Part 1

My major battle in life, and in ministry to others, is depression. I feel as though I'm often rendered useless to God during a 'bad patch' when getting out of the house is a struggle, let alone expending energy for others. But like Paul's 'thorn in the flesh', God can do amazing things with our weakness. Note: I have no idea how God can work through my depression and weakness to display his strength. While it makes a certain amount of sense in the abstract, when I try to apply it to my own life, I come up blank. Nevertheless, I know he has somehow managed to do so... people have come up to me to thank me for sharing re: depression during worship, or to talk to me about their own experience. I still don't see how that is God's strength being seen through me, if it is. Does anyone have any insight? I don't need soothing or platitudes - but some good robust light shone onto the issue might be illuminating! So, my first point in this prayer request is a desire for God to do what he wants with me - to heal me, or to work through my weakness with his strength. However he might do that, as long as he lets me know what to do and where to go, even if I don't understand how he's working. That's OK - I can cope without specific insight, as long as I have guidance from the one I trust.

Part 2

My next prayer point is my job. The one I get paid for. Recently, I've begun to hate my job. It's not that it's a bad job. The boss is OK. My colleagues are grouchy at times, but nice. My work conditions are fair. My problem is that I feel deeply restless and unsatisfied. It's a sort of 'is this all?' feeling. I don't feel as though I'm doing any good for the world by being here. Now there are two main possibilities I can see in this situation. The first - that I'm pride-filled and under the impression that I should be out saving the world. The second - that God does want me out of here and is preparing me by sowing seeds of 'discontent with the status quo' into my heart. Each of these possibilities seem quite plausible to me! So the second part of my prayer request is that God would show me the next step to take, and give me peace.

PS. If anyone wants to offer me a job, I'm more than happy to consider it!